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Spiritual Warfare in Romania

Hello from Romania!

It been way to long since my last post but its been a spiritual journey with my relationship with God. To start, I’ll be giving a life update and what I’ve been learning from the spiritual warfare I’ve experienced.

So hang on tight as I’ll let you into my life!

Romania for the last two months have brought many different challenges. These challenges have brought so much conviction into my life which was telling me over and over again of how I’ve abused the cross.

Which sucks!

This realization was only the last couple of weeks, but let us go to the beginning.

Coming into Romania, I could feel the spiritual heaviness in the country instantly and knowing that the enemy has a strong presence here. As a result, the first week here I fell into the enemies hands. The enemy was feeding me lies over and over again.

Some of these lies were; 

  • No one is going to understand what you are experiencing right now.
  • You are not worthy of being on the World Race.

And many more countless and personal questions that was feeding my mind. So for a while there, I wasn’t in the right mindset for ministry and I wasn’t pouring out of the spirit but pouring out of the flesh. 

This lasted for the first month of being here but I just pushed through.

When first coming into Romania, the squad was separated into their natural talents God has given us, for example, I was put into children’s ministry as I have experience in the children’s department in my church at home. There were many other ministries like: evangelism for the youth and young adults, media, and the P.A. roles (personal assistant) for our ministry leaders. 

Children ministry was amazing! I loved to see the Roma community children and being able to connect with each and every one of them. I could rant about them all day because there was such a clear difference of how open the children’s hearts were. They loved to practice their english with us and we practiced our Romanian with them.

But…I was using this to distract myself from the enemy so as I get back to the mission base. I could feel the attacks of the enemy hitting me.

Waking up one morning and I was remembering of how we need to bring things into the light that are from the darkness. Which was totally the Lord working in my life and gave me the boldness I needed to tell one of my teammates.

Thank God for how He keeps saving His children over and over again!

You would believe that was the end of that but it wasn’t. I was still being attacked without realizing. This came into the form of still my mind being filled with questions, more lies, and anything that wasn’t the spirit.

I wasn’t too worried as I distracted myself with things of the world and filling myself with apathy. To be perfectly honest, I distracted myself with talking to people and what the city of Craiova could provide.

I kept saying to myself, “I’m just loving my squad well to help them and give the my attention.” Which in a way it does but my priorities were wrong. I wasn’t putting God as my forefront of my life. Since God wasn’t my full priority, I couldn’t feel the complete love from Christ.

This was the conviction I was talking about.

This turned into taking advantage of the cross and using God’s children as a replacement of the love I was missing. This was the squad. I was seeking attention, admiration, and feeding the pride inside me.

Two weeks ago I got feedback about, “where am I seeking love.” I took it to the Lord and He brought so much clarity in my life and what my current motives are. All of this conviction brought to me made me upset at myself and needed to ask for forgiveness and forgive myself. (Matthew 5:23-24)

This is currently what I’m walking through and letting God take the throne of my life.

What I do now is, giving myself questions to focus on once a week, giving God all of my spare time in the morning, lunch breaks, and in the evening after ministry and dinner. Letting myself be spirit led instead letting my emotions guide me. Asking God for boldness and protection so I can bring the light into the darkness knowing I have nothing to fear.

This what I been growing into while here in Romania and in the next two weeks we’ll be leaving to Dominican Republic. I’m so excited for this! I just wanted to thank everyone for all of the support and prayers. I wanted to also apologize for going dark on all of you for the last couple of months. I’ll make it one of my priorities to give you a life update more often of what God is doing in my life and the squad.

Thank you.

2 Comments

  1. Thank you for the update! It’s amazing to hear about the transformation going on in your heart as well as the hearts of those around you. We are praying for you!!!

  2. Josiah,
    I am thankful for you and your willingness to be real and transparent about the hard things God is showing you as you grow throughout this journey. Humility is a great gift and it is when God can move in and through you more than ever.
    I will continue to pray for you to have clarity from God and reject the lies meant to distract, discourage and keep you from serving the Lord well.

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